…and that is one of the reasons for my absence from WordPress. How many times do our hearts break when we lose a beloved pet? We had been feeding Katniss for a few years and I think she was about 4 years old. This year we bought her a little house and she finally figured out that she could use it on inclement days. A few weeks ago she suddenly disappeared and I quickly realized she was dead. After a couple of days there was a smell of death on the air and all the other little critters disappeared from our garden.
She was hale and hearty before she disappeared so I suspect she was run over by a car or succumbed after an encounter with another animal. The armadillos have created a warren of burrows under our deck and into the reserve so I will never find her. Possums and raccoons have started to visit again. For weeks we looked out of the window to no avail, as did Toffee, our elderly inside cat. My grief is tarnished with relief. We have spent almost 40 years looking after difficult, feral cats and would like a break. I was so worried about Katniss’s future and potential illness but fate has taken care of that.

This is the last photograph of Katniss enjoying her little house. It now sits empty like the Taj Mahal.
Feral cats have a short lifespan compared to domesticated cats so she had a lovely few years being spoiled with ‘pasta and trout’, her very own house and loving servants. Her little house sits empty but I have seen squirrels hop in and out. The fat raccoon could only squeeze her head in… We will leave it out as our Taj Mahal to Katniss. Perhaps it will give one of our many critter visitors a warm shelter?
I am going to take a little break from blogging and following but thank you to all my visitors. I look forward to catching up with everyone in the New Year. May you enjoy a marvelous festive season. Merry Christmas!
Kerry – I’m so very sorry for your loss. Losing a pet can be devastating. My thoughts are with you and Andy.
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Thank you so much, Gloria. K x
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I’m so very sorry for your loss. Purrseidon and I still miss Mr. M, who lost his battle with cancer on April 2nd.
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Thank you Jeanne and I am so sorry about Mr, M. K x
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At least we keep them in our hearts.
Mr. M was diagnosed in October and given 2-3 months, but obviously hung on longer, so we knew we were losing him… My eyes are tearing up as I type this…. I was useless for two days when he actually passed, but know that he was finally free of pain, so I should be happy for him.
Strange thing is that we rarely see rainbows, but did that morning. Another strange thing is that Purrseidon seems to know where his grave is – she never went to that corner, previously, but now makes a beeline for it when she goes out; spends a while there, then rambles on.
I know I’m prejudiced, but to me, he was an amazing little fellow… I’m sure Katniss was the same for you, so totally understand why you had to take time off from your blog.
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Katniss looks like a very healthy feral cat. She had a great life. Much better than without your intervention. That’s what matters.
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Thank you so much, Katharine. She was amazingly healthy and had even learned to talk to me. Kx
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So sorry for your loss. There is no way to stop the sting of grief. Wish I was there to give you a hug.
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So sorry Kerry about losing your beloved feral cat. All pets are part of our family and when we lose them we definitely hurt. I know your pain. Luv, Gary
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Thank you so much, Gary. She was a strange little cat but we loved her. K x
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I will take a virtual hug, Joseph. Her death was just a blow when my health was a bit dodgy (that’s a technical term). 🥰
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Decades ago, I had a pet duck for several years until one morning I woke up to find it dead in our fenced-in back yard, killed by an unknown animal. I had grown so attached to that duck that I was devastated, so I know how you feel.
I wish you a Merry Christmas (despite your loss) and an enjoyable break.
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I love ducks – how sad for you. My capacity for loving animals has no end and I missed our little hamster as much as any pet. Thank you. K x
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It is always painful to lose one of the family. Be well.
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Thank you so much. I am thinking about you this Christmas and hope you will not be alone. Sending a hug. K x
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Thank you for thinking of me. It is looking like I will be alone. Done it before so it’s okay. Thank you
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I have spent the Holidays alone and it was okay. It is just one day out of many. Kx
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That is exactly how I look at it.
Thnak you.
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Katniss was lucky to have you. I still remember Tibby. Hope you’re okay. Have the loveliest of Christmases xxx
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You just made me laugh, Anne. Everyone remembers Tibby! When I went to the school reunion in 2002 our classmates asked me if Tibby was still alive – she would have been 30 years old. I guess I talked about her all the time…😺 Have fun with your girls, ❤
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I’m so sorry for your loss-
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Thank you, Chad. 😺
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Kerry I’m so sorry! Losing an animal friend, whether in-house or feral, is always so difficult. I still miss our kitty who left in September. You gave her the care she needed, so she had a much better life the last few years than she could have had without you. Wishing you peace and comfort, many hugs, Leah
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Thank you so much, Leah. I know you are feeling the same grief. They were in our lives for such a short time but gave us so much joy. Perhaps Ultraviolet and Katniss have already met over the rainbow bridge? K x
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Surrey to hear that. It’s never easy…
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Thank you so much, Simon. Look forward to blogging again. K x
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I’ll look forward to seeing you back S x
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Oh dear Kerry, so sorry to hear of Katniss’ demise. Especially sad that you can’t find her. I’m glad you’re keeping her little house. Sending the hugest of hugs to you and best wishes for a comforting holiday season. See you when you’re back.
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I really needed that hug, Peggy. Thank you. Our beloved elderly Toffee has been very sweet, cuddling us endlessly. K x
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Sad news, Kerry. I’m so sorry to read of your loss. Take good care of yourself, and have the best Christmas break you can. I’ll be looking forward to seeing your posts in the New Year.
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Thank you so much, Denise. I am looking forward to reconnecting with all my friends. K x
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My Vinny always liked cats so I would like to think they are together now playing and enjoying each others company, just as I do yours. Best wishes from your friend in life, even in the sorrowful moments.
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Thank you so much, John. I know you share my pain just now. Tell Vinny to watch out for Mrs. Stripe over the rainbow bridge…she terrified all dogs and then laughed. 😺
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Years ago Vinny and the 4 cats I had all slept together so I know he can calm Mrs. Stripe and make her feel at home.
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That’s a lovely idea!
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Kerry, I know you miss Katniss in this time of loss. When you do decide to write again in the new year or next month, I look forward to reading more of your writing. Don’t go away permanently.
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Chad, thank you so much. Her death was just the last straw with some challenging work and health issues. I will be coming back with funny posts and some great shots from the Grand Canyon. My peripheral neuropathy has been bad so I am finally seeing a Neurology specialist. K x
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I’m glad you’re seeing a specialist. Cool, love your travel pieces.
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I even have more from Brenham…😁
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Cool, glad to hear back from you and read your sassy wit!
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I will post my snarky Christmas letter soon – you will enjoy that. 🎄🎄
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Cool, look forward to it.
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Oh Kerry I feel for you, I know how you feel. I’ts a pain that lingers. ❤️
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Thank you so much. I feel worse because I can’t fully grieve. In all those years I never felt her fur because she was so wild but she seemed happy with our relationship. K x
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I am so sorry for your loss. Pets are not pets, but members of the family.
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Thank you, GP. She was a strange wild pet but loved nonetheless. K x
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I’m so very sorry for your loss. I think Katniss would be proud to know her everlasting legacy will be a shelter for her fellow critters…
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Thank you so much. I thought you might like the squirrels playing in it. K x
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Dear Kerry,
I’m so sorry to hear of your loss, and my thoughts are with you. I know how very much attached one can get to ones animals, and how very difficult it is when they go. To my mind, it is even more difficult when one doesn’t know exactly what happened to them. That was the case years ago, when my best friend, as I used to call our dog Buster, ran away and was never seen again. Even years after that I hoped – against all reason, of course – that he would again be there, wagging his tail when we drove up to the house.
Being with you in my thoughts,
Pit
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Thank you so much, Pit. This has happened once before with another cat in Scotland. We searched for weeks to no avail. I am so sorry about Buster but perhaps he had a nice new home. K x
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As to Buster, I believe he met a much harsher fate and ran into a horde of javelinas. More here: https://wp.me/p1wnbs-vW
What makes it all the harder to bear is that it was all my fault. He [and Sally, our other dog at that time], were standing under a tree on our property, barking furiously at a raccoon in the tree. I wanted to scare the raccoon away and fired a shotgun tree times. That frightened the dogs so much that they ran away in panic. That flight might have taken them into a horde of javelinas. I know there used to be some around, in the direction in which the dogs fled. Sally came back later, with a wound on her hind quarters that could well have been inflicted by those big teeth of a javelina. Very likely Buster was not lucky enough to escape.
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That is very sad, Pit. It wasn’t really your fault just a series of sad events. I am thinking about you. K x
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Thanks for your words, Kerry.
Have a great Sunday,
Pit
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Oh dear. From one mother to another, i convey my deepest condolences and understand your pain. 🌺🌸
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Thank you so much. I appreciate your thoughtfulness. K x
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I’m so sorry for your loss, Kerry. My heart goes out to you.
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Thank you so much, Margarisa. Time will heal. K x
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I’m so sad for you Kerry! I think you need another occupant for the Taj Mahal! xx
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Thank you, Liben. There are plenty of critter squatters who might enjoy the Taj. 🦝
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Kerry, I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. 😦 Katniss looked very much like two of my own fur persons (both now living across the Rainbow Bridge.
Wishing you a peaceful holiday and look forward to your posts again in the new year!
Fim
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Thank you, Fim. We have had a few black and whites over the years – such pretty little critters. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to you too. 🎄Kx
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Ah Kerry, that’s a heartbreaker but you have rationalised it well. It’s part of nature’s cycle. You’re comforted in the knowledge that did what you could for Katniss and she had a more comfortable life than many. Happy Christmas.
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Thank you, Roy. I always feel guilty about feeling relief – felt much the same when my poor Mum died! A Merry Christmas to you, too. 🎄
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I’m so sorry, Kerry. Animals, especially cats and dogs, are our kindred spirits. As sad as her passing is, know that you did your part to make her time on Earth a better one.
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Thank you, Rob. I miss seeing her cute wee face but there is always a possum or raccoon to watch.
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So sorry for your loss, katniss will forever live in your heart ❤
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Thank you so much. K x
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I am so sorry for your loss. I think it’s amazing that you have been looking after difficult, feral cats for almost 40 years. You are a kind and loving person who is setting a great example. Katniss was Lucky to have you; you made her time on earth a wonderful experience.
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Thank you so much, Matilde, for a beautiful comment. You have made me think differently about her loss.
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